Tag: Gratitude

  • over. it. / interconnection as purpose

    over. it. / interconnection as purpose

    I know that it’s easy to think God isn’t real.
    Or if He is, that He is just the Big Bang.
    Or if He is more than the Big Bang, He’s the un-namable element of energy that interconnects all things together.
    But, what a shame
    to miss out on having a relationship with God.

     

    If it hasn’t happened to you, you may not believe it, but God answers prayers.
    Moreover, if you consistently seek Him,
    He continues to answer those prayers.

    We can debate about why the Divine Spirit has to be called God in the first place
    or why that God isn’t referred to as Her,
    But I really can’t answer that for you.

    Only He can answer for you.

     

    What I know for sure is that God is real to me.

    —— (more…)

  • year 28 in 2 poems

    year 28 in 2 poems

    I.

    The son of Mary, Jesus, hurries up a slope
    as though a wild animal were chasing him.
    Someone following him asks, ‘Where are you going?
    No one is after you.’ Jesus keeps on,
    saying nothing, across two more fields. ‘Are you
    the one who says words over a dead person,
    so that he wakes up?’ I am. ‘Did you not make
    the clay birds fly?’ Yes. ‘Who then
    could possibly cause you to run like this?’
    Jesus slows his pace.

    I say the Great Name over the deaf and the blind,
    they are healed. Over a stony mountainside,
    and it tears its mantle down to the navel.
    Over non-existence, it comes into existence.
    But when I speak lovingly for hours, for days,
    with those who take human warmth
    and mock it, when I say the Name to them, nothing
    happens. They remain rock, or turn to sand,
    where no plants can grow. Other diseases are ways
    for mercy to enter, but this non-responding
    breeds violence and coldness toward God.
    I am fleeing from that.


    As little by little air steals water, so praise
    Is dried up and evaporates with foolish people
    who refuse to change. Like cold stone you sit on,
    a cynic steals body heat. He doesn’t feel
    the sun
    . Jesus wasn’t running from actual people.
    He was teaching in a new way.

    “What Jesus Runs Away From”

    RUMI

    II.

    Jesus on the lean donkey,
    this is an emblem of how the rational intellect
    should control the animal-soul.

    Let your spirit be strong like Jesus.
    If that part becomes weak,
    then the worn-our donkey grows to a dragon

    Be grateful when what seems unkind
    comes from a wise person.

    Once, a holy man,
    riding his donkey, saw a snake crawling into
    a sleeping man’s mouth! He hurried, but he couldn’t
    prevent it. He hit the man several blows with his club.

    The man woke terrified and ran beneath an apple tree
    With many rotten apples on the ground.
    “Eat! You miserable wretch! Eat.”
    Why are you doing this to me?
    “Eat more, you fool.”
    I’ve never seen you before!
    Who are you? Do you have some inner quarrel with my soul?

    The wise man kept forcing him to eat, and then he ran him.
    For hours he whipped the poor man and made him run.
    Finally, at nightfall, full of rotten apples,
    fatigued, bleeding, he fell
    and vomited everything,
    the good and the bad, the apples and the snake.

    When he saw that ugly snake
    Come out of himself, he fell on his knees
    before his assailant.
    “Are you Gabriel? Are you God?
    I bless the moment you first noticed me. I was dead
    and didn’t know it. You’ve given me a new life.
    Everything I’ve said to you was stupid!
    I didn’t know”
    If I had explained what I was doing,
    you might have panicked and died of fear.

    Muhammad said,
    If I described the enemy that lives
    Inside men, even the most courageous would be paralyzed. No one
    would go out, or do any work. No one would pray or fast,
    and all power to change would fade
    from human beings

    so I kept quiet
    while I was beating you, that like David
    I might shape iron, so that, impossibly,
    I might put feathers back into a bird’s wing.

    God’s silence is necessary, because of humankind’s
    faintheartedness. If I had told you about the snake,
    you wouldn’t have been able to eat, and if
    you hadn’t eaten, you wouldn’t have vomited.

    I saw your condition and drove my donkey hard
    into the middle of it, saying always under my breath,
    “Lord, make it easy on him.” I wasn’t permitted
    to tell you, and I wasn’t permitted to stop beating you!

    The healed man, still kneeling,
    “I have no way to thank you for the quickness
    of your wisdom and the strength of your guidance.
    God will thank you.”

    Jesus on a Lean Donkey

    The Essential Rumi (1997.)
    Translated by Coleman Barks

  • Return of the Prodigal: a meditation

    Return of the Prodigal: a meditation

    A meditation on Luke 15:24.
    “For this my son was dead,  and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.”

    Sounds & voices:

    harmonies from my childhood ring out from the bathroom,
    French songs my father used to play from the radio.
    (I sing along with my broken French in my head)

    The image as he gets ready for work, I am swept away into nostalgia,
    a sweetness I had been craving
    my last six months in Nashville

    I am home.

    I dream of my father as a young man,
    handsome and determined, very large glasses on a skinny frame
    making his way as a young African in newly independent Senegal

    or roaming the rues of Paris in search of a bon café,
    a noir in a sea of pale blanc.
    Perhaps a blonde girlfriend by his side
    as they bravely dare to redefine cultural taboos
    and overcome the racial socio-political walls between them.

    Just as soon, the Accura dealer is over the speaker
    reminding me that his new cars will bring me joy
    since my old Ford has a dented fender
    and expired plates.

    I am American again. The image is clear;
    my father, too, is American again,
    his citizenship codified some years ago
    by an oath and deep blue passport in hand.

    What was lost in gaining this new identity?
    I wonder as a few salty tears gently sliding down my cheeks surprise me
    and I am aware of the small lump
    in my throat.

    Happiness or sadness?

    Sometimes for me, they are the same.
    I am grateful to be home again,
    to find what I had been looking for.

    I am getting my life force back in to me slowly,
    everyday I am here, a little more.
    It was God’s grace that brought me home
    so that we all
    may be free to live again.

    Amen.